Randomly Alex

Hey. I think it's safe to say I have a compulsive need to share weird things about myself. Today I'd like to share 5 of my life goals that might surprise you. Or maybe not.

1. Own a puppy.
I know. They grow and get older and become "dogs," but to me, it will always be referred to as a puppy. And it has to be MINE. Mine. My very own puppy. And it has to be beautiful and go jogging with me and love me unconditionally.

2. Bare children.
I will adopt if given the opportunity, but I want to give birth at least once. At most, seven times. Yeah. SEVEN.

3. Write a book.
I love love love reading, and I consider myself a pretty good writer. I would love to write something that other people would pay to read. That would make my....life.

4. Live outside Utah.
Don't get me wrong, I love the Beehive. I just want to branch out and experience an every day life somewhere that isn't....here. The above picture happens to be Seattle, which would be ideal.

5. Only marry once.
In Autumn time. One wedding. For eternity.

A tribute to my Mother (better late than never)

                                          My mother and I, October of this year

This past Sunday was my mother's birthday, I wanted to do this post then, but I've been preoccupied. SO here it is, two days late.

I remember having a great childhood, but I don't remember many details about it. However, one thing I do remember, and probably one of my very first memories, is my mother singing me to sleep when I had had a nightmare. To me and any of my siblings, one song in particular will bring memories flooding back. To this day it has a special place in my heart and I will sing it to my own children one day.

My mother is the most selfless person I know (-less, not -ish). She has worked to help support our family for as long as I can remember. She serves faithfully and goes above and beyond for our church. She doesn't hesitate to help a neighbor or friend in need. She keeps our house in order and manages her own business. I know what you're thinking, "This is impossible. Your mother must be a robot." But no, she isn't because she also has the biggest, most loving heart of anyone on earth. Just the other day, I was super grumpy to her and she hugged me and said she loved me. No robot would do that.

I can't possibly talk about all the wonderful things about my mother because then this post would take me my whole life to type. So just know SHE IS THE BEST MOM ON EARTH.

I love you mommy :)

things you probably don't know about me and probably don't care about but I'm going to tell you anyway

1. I cry a lot.
This may not be much of a surprise, but it's true. I can cry over ridiculous things. I once cried during a diaper commercial. This is because I have an irrational love of babies, but that's a post for another time. the point is I cry all the time and with almost no warning. I cry when I'm happy, sad, mad, bored, whatever.
2. I keep a diligent journal.
An ACTUAL journal with paper and pen. I tape in ticket stubs and draw dumb pictures and write down stupid stuff I do with my boyfriend. I write what's happening in my family and what I'm doing in school and everything in between.
3. I am in love with IcyHot.
I keep a bottle by my bed and smell it right before I lay down to go to sleep.
4. I have terrible terrible dreams.
The worst thing you can imagine: I've dreamed it. People have been murdered in my dreams. While I could probably peg it to watching too much Law and Order: SVU, I try not to blame Mariska Hargitay for any of my problems.
5. I have disgusting eating habits.
I'll go all day on one bowl of cereal and then eat an entire bowl of popcorn and chips & salsa at 1am. Gross.

learning to laugh

Don't misinterpret the title of this post. I know how to laugh. But I also know how to get extremely frustrated and angry.
So recently I've been learning how to laugh at myself and at situations that would normally make me very upset. It's a learning process about not focusing on things I can't change. The operative word being "process."
My goal is to be able to one day 'laugh things off' and say "well, that's dumb, but whatever, I can't do anything about it."
Workin' on it.